u + me =

20.
"Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to Dex, happy birthday to you!" The group of business and economics majors all stood around one single table clapping and congratulating Dex Masterson, the last one to turn twenty out of all of Simone and Jane's friends. Jane leaned over and whispered in Dex's ear, and Dex smiled in response and kissed her on the cheek. Jane laughed, and motioned over to Simone to come over and get in the picture. Simone leaned into Jane, who was beaming at her boyfriend, Dex, and turned to Simone and whispered "thank you for setting us up, I owe you one," to which Simone replied with a hug. Random cameras were flashing at the trio, and Dex waved over Cameron, Simone's longtime crush. Simone's body tensed as he put his arm around her shoulder as he squeezed to get in the picture.
"Say 'One year till legal!'" someone yelled from behind a camera.
"One year till legal!" they all said, and the quickly disbanded from their intimate huddle.
"All right, everybody, let's begin the couples trivia challenge," Jane said with Dex's arm draped around her waist. "Everyone grab your significant other, and fill out the quiz that's being passed around. Whoever gets the most answers right, wins, um, something! You may begin!"
Everyone paired up with their boyfriends or girlfriends, and the only two left were Simone and Cameron.
"Hey, Cameron, go over and do it with Simone," Dex turned to Simone and smiled. Jane had told Dex how much Simone liked him, and now Dex said it was his duty to get them together.
"All right, sure," Cameron jogged over to where Simone was sitting. "Hey."
"Hey," Simone uttered. Cameron was wearing a crisp, white oxford underneath his blazer. Out of curiosity, Simone asked, "Where did you get your blazer from?"
"Oh, funny you should ask," Cameron looked down at his blazer and back up at Simone. "It was part of my uniform in high school. I'm too lazy to get a new one. Well, you know I'm lazy."
Oh yes, Simone did. Last year, he always forgot to bring supplies to class and mooches off of Simone, but she didn't mind. "I do. Can we start the quiz, I really want to win."
"Yeah, same here."
The two filled out the quiz in a short amount of time, and after turning it in to Jane and Dex, they began to talk. He told her about his life before college, and she told him what it was like to go to boarding school, just the good parts. He just sat there and listened closely, like there would be a quiz on what Simone was spewing out to him. After awhile, and it's was announced that the winner of challenged would be announced at midnight, Cameron instigated a new conversation.
"I don't want to make you uncomfortable, but Dex told me."
Simone instantly knew what he was talking about. Dex had told him about her past, probably every detail Jane knew about it. But so much time had passed, Simone didn't care.
"It doesn't, really. Thanks for telling me, I guess."
"Oh look, it's almost midnight! I hope we win!" Cameron turned towards where Dex and Jane were standing, holding the results in their hands.
"We are only saying who got first," Dex said. "Sorry if that hurts anyone's feelings." The crowd of undergrads laughed and Cameron grabbed Simone's hand.
"Squeeze my hand for good luck," he said.
"And the winner is," Dex paused, looked around the room.
"Simone and Cameron!" Jane yelled.
"Thanks everyone for playing this lame game, on my eventful 20th birthday. Everybody please leave. Now. I'm not joking."
Everyone laughed again, and Cameron leaned in for a hug. "Ah, this was fun. Reminds me of last year and all the late night studying. I've missed you, Simone."
Simone did not believe the words coming out of Cameron's mouth. "Yeah, likewise."
The two began to file out of the dingy italian restaurant where Dex and Jane were now cleaning up the remnants of a party. "Can I take you home?" Cameron asked.
"Yeah, that'd be great."
The drive back to campus was silent, and it wasn't until Cameron was helping Simone out of his car that the silence was broken.
Simone was now standing in front of her dorm, looking for her key card in her jacket pocket. That was when Cameron spoke "I, um, I, uh." Cameron didn't finish his sentence, because before he could he had pressed his lips against Simone's.
Simone felt a jolt of energy, a feeling she hadn't felt since she last kissed
Max. She quickly tried to push the thought out of her head, and then Cameron pulled away.
"I like you," he said.
"I like you, too."

19.
Simone quietly shut the door to her co-ed dorm and tip-toed down the carpeted halls. The dorm smelled like mildew, but Simone wouldn't want to be anywhere else. She was happy, and had come far in the last three years. She looked down at her wrist, where a thick scar covered the N in her 'N&S' tattoo, the tattoo she got on her 17th birthday. Despite it being only two years since, she had been through so much: a suicide attempt, a death, a first love, an acceptance, a graduation, a new start. Simone tried not to think about her past, and focus on her future.
She reached inside her Mulberry school bag and pulled out her obnoxiously large keychain, with miniature plastic animals and souvenir keychains hanging off of it. She turned the key in the door to her dorm room
and quietly walked in.
"Don't worry, I'm up."
"God, you scared me." Simone put down her books on the desk that came with her dorm room. She turned on her bedside lamp and saw her roommate, Jane, sitting on the floor, the glow of her laptop illuminating her freckled face. "Last minute econ paper?
"Oui. Almost done."
"Cool." Simone laid down on her twin bed and thought she was off the hook, but she was soon proved wrong.
"So, where were you?" Jane asked, raising her eyebrow.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, why were you out past one o'clock?"
"Uh, studying. In the library."
"For?"
"Evolution of Consumerism."
"You mean the class you take with Cameron?"
"Yeah."
"Were you studying with him?"
Simone put her face in her pillow.
"Simone," Jane said, with a stern look on her face, "Deveaux."
"Maybe." Simone's response was muffled by her pillow.
"You little-"
"It was just studying, ok?"
"Nope, I know you're lying. Ah ha! I've caught you."
"Slow down, what you mean, you've caught me?"
Jane lit up, like she had just figured out who killed JFK, "I know you weren't studying in the library because, ok, hold on," Jane stood up and began pacing around their small, cramped dorm room, "So, ok, for once, I actually had to check out a book. Ok, so, I went to library and after I checked out my book, I went to the Announcements board, right by the exit into the quad, because I wanted to see when the next campus variety show is, because, you know, it's classic entertainment. Anyway, there was this real big announcement that said, and I quote, 'Library closed tonight for matinence', and underneath it said today's date. So. I know you weren't studying in the library." Jane sat back down and wrapped her arms around her arms.
"You really should become a lawyer. Forget Economics."
"I know, that was a little crazy, but, I don't know."
Simone realized the sudden seriousness in Jane's tone, and realized the jokey, between roommates banter was over. "What?"
"Well, it's just it always seems you have, like, a filter where you think you can't tell me things so you only tell me the bare minimum. I know we've only been roommates for little while but, I don't know, you're the only girl I'm super close with. As cliche as it sounds, I think of you as a sister."
"I know, Jane. I think of you as a sister, too. It's just, I had a difficult time in high school."
"I know." Jane looked at Simone with guilt. "I kind of looked you up online when I first found out you were my roommate. Sorry."
"That's ok. I'm glad I didn't have to recap it all for you." Simone smiled.
"I'm such a creep."
Simone laughed, and immediately had a flashback from a time in back when she was at EWSS. Well, technically she wasn't at EWSS, because she had left halfway through junior year because she was afraid. She was afraid of losing her brother, afraid of losing her sanity, afraid of losing everything. She told everybody she had left to be a model, but was really just going to live with her dad in the Upper East Side. Anyway, she remembered driving into the city, Nate Demant in the driver's seat, Noelle Valentina right beside him, blasting Kings of Leon, her favorite band. Noelle had dragged Simone and the rest of their dorm to one of their shows. Simone was in the back seat, wind blowing through her she. Simone remembers Max, her first and only boyfriend, sitting next to her rambling about where he was planning on interning during and how he had found a hotel she could stay at. She remembers smiling, thinking nothing else could be more perfect than this moment.
"So," Jane's voice brought Simone back to reality. "Are you gonna tell me what you were really doing?"
Simone smiled. "Sure. So anyway, we were studying. But it was in his room."
Jane squealed, "Oh my god!"
"No, no, not in that way. Strictly studying. We have to make a business plan for class. But, unfortunately, there's a third person working with us."
"There always is. Who is it?"
"Dex Masterson."
"At least it's not a girl."
"I know, you're right but, I don't know. It still seems weird."
"But, you like him, right?"
"A lot." Simone smiled. She had had the biggest crush on Cameron Wiles. He was in three of her classes and always sat next to her, because he was too lazy to bring his own materials to class, and she was too awkward to start a connection in any other way. "But I think I want be his friend first. I don't know why, I just do."
"Understandable." The room was silent, while the two thought about how they had become so much closer in just the course of ten minutes.
"Wanna watch a movie?" Jane asked, sifting through a shelf of movie.
"Yes, please!"
Simone pulled out a bag of M&Ms from her desk and sat next to Jane. Simone began to feel that feeling again, the feeling of everything being perfect.

this is like my anthem, yo.
 
also im obssesed with oprah, scarlett johansson, cher lloyd, victoria secret supermodels, cruel intentions, candles, friends re-runs, grape juice, and william shakespeare.
 
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at the beach <3 on an island in the sun.

i was making this set then i realized chace is in it a few times so im dedicated this to georgiaaa

this song is love from me to you.

don't dream it's over by crowed house
 
i don't think i could love leighton meester any more than i do at this moment. ♥

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everyone must the breakfast club before you die!

<3 this song sososoos much.
i need some music/books for and up coming car trip. any suggestions?

1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
lame
 
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
don't have a cell phone.
 
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
yes
 
4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
don't have a cellular device.
 
7. What are you excited for?
disneeeyyyy <33
 
8. What were you doing yesterday?
nanning
 
9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they loved you?
parents
 
10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
cheddar bunnies.
 
11. Have a best friend?
plural
 
12. Are you scared to fall in love?
ehhhh
 
13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
no.. too much outside stuff
 
14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
danielle from real housewives of new jersey.. shes crazzzzy
 
15. What time is it exactly right now?
10:53 PM.
 
16. What do you want right now?
a life
 
17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
uhh girls on swim team
 
18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/?
single are not ready to mingle
 
19. When was the last time you cried?
last week...my book was sad :[
 
20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yessum
 
21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
at times
 
22. How fast does your mind change?
too fast.
 
23. I bet you miss somebody right now?
of course
 
24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
sure.. ive got my reality tv.
 
25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
because they have nothing better to do.
 
26. Tell me what's on your mind?
my future
 
27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
watching all of the coppola movies on me next car trip.
 
28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
yessssssss it fits me perfectly!
 
29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
a few mintues ago
 
30. When is your next road trip?
soon enough
 
31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
no but i want someone like that
 
32. How's your heart?
anton yelchin (im a copycat)
 
33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
erryday

 
34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
probably not
 
35. What are you planning on doing after this?
sleeping//watching lost.. cause thats me life.
 
36. Next time you will kiss someone?
not within the next two years
 
37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
nope
 
38. Who do you not get along with?
ughhhhhhhhhhhhh attentionwhores
 
39. What does you 3rd recent text say?
no cellular device

40. What are you wearing right now?
dungarees :]
 
41. You're locked in a room with the person you you last liked, how is it?
awkward
 
42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
awhileee
 
43. What's your fave boy and girl name right now?
ezra & dree
 
44. How did you feel when you woke up?
asdfghjk see question 3
 
45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
yes
 
46. Do you crack your knuckles?
never.. its a fear of mine
 
47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
sleeping
 
48. Whos the first B in your contacts?
wtf is this question.
 
49. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
cant remember which is sadddd
 
50. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your out of your life, do you go after them?
fhdsghdjsfhsjk of course
 
51. Last awkward moment?
being forced to sit on a boys lap
 
52. Are you afraid of the dark?
if i'm alone and creeped out.
 
53. Do you have good vision?
hyes
 
54. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
nope
 
55. Have you ever slapped someone?
nope..i want too
 
56. Are you irish?
i dont think so..
 
57. Do you use chapstick?
nope, i like chapped lips
 
58. Do you have any scars?
EVERY WEAR ON MY LEGS. i scratch bugs bites wayy to much.
 
59. Is there someone you will never forgive?
no
 
i taag anybody with the letter B or R or E in their names.